Independence Days (of Emotional Flashback)
So, I wrote this blog entry earlier this month and had the amnesia that often comes with anniversary flashbacks. Here’s proof! I forgot I’d made a really similar entry last year. I’m including both, so you can see the similarities. We can miss patterns for years. Even when we’re aware, self-reflective, and observant. Our brains […]
How ZUMBA has Changed My Life
That looks about as funny as a blog post heading as I thought it would. So, I do a Zumba class every (most) Saturday morning for the past couple months with my friend, Asha. She picks me up in her comfy blue eco-suv car, and we chat and catch up a little on the […]
Why Dinner Makes Me Nervous
Trigger warning, friends: Bulemia. For the last 6 months or so, my body sensory information has been rapidly changing and thawing. It’s a continuing evolution, an evolution, as long as I have this body, I guess. Lately, I’ve become increasingly aware of how much tension my body is holding when I’m about to eat dinner. When I was married, it used to be just a general increasing anxiety in the […]
The Trigger of Bedtime, as a Survivor Parent
Wednesday, May 4, 2022 I used to sort of dread bedtime with my kids when they were younger. I looked forward to it too; as an exhausted parent of 3 young boys I was so very, very ready for the lying-down part of my day. I loved the reading of books too, and the side […]
A Trauma Anniversary
Experiencing A Trauma Anniversary Monday, March 29th, 2021 Really challenging day yesterday. Sundays….always triggering (still not sure why, but very reliably so.) Add in a failed attempt at a hike with my kids and friends (as we got ready to go, my eldest suddenly had feet too big for his shoes (?!) ensuing drama […]
Self Pleasure and Survivorship
Tuesday, March 9, 2021 Alright, this is a bit racy…. but i want to write a little about masturbation as a Survivor. First of all, hate the word. It sounds both too technical, and too crass. And, like the many varieties of snow, wine, kissing, chocolate, there isn’t just ONE thing that masturbation is. […]
Hate being a Survivor of Childhood Sexual Abuse
I’m thinking that here, each week, I will write about some aspect of being an adult survivor. Being myself, in my grown-up woman life, and having the gifts and challenges that I do, in part, because of what I survived as a child. I hate being a survivor of sexual abuse. Of incest abuse by […]
For You, Survivor, just beginning
For You, just starting your healing path, as an adult survivor of Childhood Sexual Abuse and/or Incest Abuse… This is an arduous journey you’ve begun, to be sure. Be brave. Also, be certain: you are undertaking it now, because you are ready to. Some days you won’t feel ready. Some days you will feel […]
